6/17/2026 00:33
I discovered what true peace in the presence of another human being feels like for the first time. And it's not what I expected.
I expected some type of fanfare in my brain, maybe a huge sign letting me know I made it. But instead... I got a nervous system that is absolutely exhausted. In the best way possible.
With this human? I was asked where I was at mentally. Like... excuse me? What? Nobody has ever really stopped to care if I was in a good or bad place mentally in a simple moment.
This meeting has brought up some things trauma wise, which is to be expected with this type of thing, when you're healing consciously. And that I am, healing consciously of course. I don't think I could stop at this point if I wanted to.
This human has caused me to be able to transmute the things coming up for me.
That's what this actually is.
Nervous system healing is the actual grit behind everything.
Showing my nervous system a new experience is going to bring up memories of the opposite.
Again.
And again.
And again.
But for now? I feel safe. With another human. And that tells me that I can get through anything.
I used to flinch when someone touched me even if I saw it coming. Now I feel safe around another human being.
There is hope. There is healing. We all have the ability to work through the things, it's just hard work that requires a lot of mental excavation.
I ASKED for mutual expansion with another human being in a visualization. I asked for this. And for now, I have it. That's enough.
My nervous system is TIRED, But it exhaled for the first time in the presence of another human.
That's magic.
Pure magic.
-An eternally exhausted penguin, Haley
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