6/2/2026 12:48
Hello, darkness, my old friend.
I knew I'd find you here, in the halls of my mind.
You have always been lurking, waiting for me to come find you. You have been waiting for the day I'd come seek you out, haven't you?
Well, here we are. Standing at the precipice of everything we have always been for each other. You, darkness, my friend, have always been lurking in the corner waiting for a moment to attach to my ego, to push my soul out.
You, darkness, have been here since the day I was born, just waiting for the right time. You have hovered over me every single day that I have been alive. You were there with me when I tried to kill myself all those times, you were there with me on my happy days.
Darkness has always been there, waiting in the corners, awaiting an opportunity to pounce, but also waiting to love.
But what happens when I want to hug my darkness, when I want to fully embrace it? Would my darkness hug me back?
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I walk down the hallways of my mind, passing door after door, all belonging to different aspects of my inner child. You see, I had a pretty fucking traumatic childhood so my parts work included so many versions of me that 'broke off'.
One time when I was walking the hallways of my mind I opened a door and found five-year-old me sitting on a bed crying. Teenage version of me rushed in to make sure everything was okay. That's what happens when you don't have support or real love in the physical world - you become everything for yourself - even internally.
Well, today? I will not open those doors. I will continue to walk down the hallway. My destination? The darkest corner of my mind, a corner that hasn't been reached yet. I walk past what feels like hundreds of doors, the light fading little by little with every single step I take.
I take a step. Creek. I take another step, another creek. I must be getting close to darkness, I want to hug it. I want to know it. I want to embrace it and squeeze life into it.
I close my eyes, take a deep breath, and take ten steps forward before hitting a wall, but this isn't a physical wall like one would expect. We are inside of my mind after all. This is a cloud of energy, sentient energy, that has been waiting all my life for me to come see it fully in its entirety.
I take a step backwards and hold my hand up to touch the entity in front of me, I feel a wave crash over my body of pure peace. Peace with darkness? Yes. We must embrace our light and dark aspects to become pure Temperance.
"Haley?"
"Darkness?"
I smile physically and fall deeper into meditation, darkness and I have a chat as though we are old friends catching up.
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I will be creating a meditation/hypnosis to help guide you along the hallways of your mind. I love you!!
-Haley Huckabee
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